My Spiritual Journey First Thursday pals are posting about nudges today. My thoughts:
I've been through a challenge recently. I was asked to lead a workshop, a 3-hour workshop, for some folks who teach writing to young children. It needed a PowerPoint presentation. I had never used PowerPoint. It needed to look professional, like a graduate course. Daunting! At the last minute, because I didn't really understand the technology, I had to give it without my speaker notes. Whoa...
So, first of all, I survived. I'm thankful for that, believe me. There were moments when I wondered.
What made me agree to it in the first place? A nudge. I had a nudge. I wanted to share some things I hadn't been able to share. I wanted to feel like I was still "in the game." I wanted to use all my God-given talents to the best of my ability.
So, I stepped out of my comfort zone. More than once, in the preparation process, I came close to meltdown. I'm old, folks! Technology is a huge challenge to me. Plus, I had to drive a fair distance on busy roads in New Jersey's rush hour traffic. That, in itself, can push me to my limit.
What kept me going? A number of things: support from a colleague, and support from my husband, but also very important to me, I had support from my faith community. My prayer partner continued to pray for me through the months of preparation, and that reassured me. I felt nudges every time I went to worship. I felt that every hymn, every prayer, every sermon, supported me. I felt that I was in God's hands.
In spite of that feeling, however, several times toward the end of the process, I felt panic. My heart raced, my muscles twitched, I couldn't sleep. I really had to work my way through it. I sang hymns, I played them on the piano, I sang along with them in my car. I tried to gain perspective. I practiced deep breathing, I exercised, I drank Tension Tamer Tea. I ate... wait for it... chocolate!!! Yes! I read that chocolate can have a calming effect, and I absolutely went for it! God is good!
I am still learning from this challenge, and I expect that to continue. What a huge blessing. A small example is the SJFT image above. This is the first time I've been able to use it because I didn't know how to transport it before. So... TaDa!!! It may be a small learning, but I'm happy for it.
The results are still coming in, but I received positive feedback from the teaching staff as well as my support colleague. I know I forgot a few points, but that doesn't distress me. I feel positive about the experience, and my confidence is boosted. My learning curve was huge, and I managed it. I worked hard. Really hard. I'd like to say that I worked my butt off, but I'm afraid I still have a fairly substantial one. That's okay. We're talking about nudges, not miracles!
My best to all of you. May your nudges lead to blessings.